This year has been pretty weird for me..I didn't feel no festive cheer or joy like I've usually felt for the past 22 years. It's got nothing to do with not believing in santa claus and stuff..I've stopped believing like ages ago. It's just the cheer in the air that lights the spark...you know...
Like I said...it's a dead year this year. Looks like I've become the grinch with a heart 2 sizes too small or something.
What did I do this year? Went to my friends place on the 24th. Saw my old poly friends again...damn..alot of them are in OCS. Good on you chums!! They were talking about their turn outs..haha..I told them about ours. Guess who's was more sadistic in nature.
Came back past mid-night..slept for a few hours and woke up to go to church which I slept through...more or less...
and sunday...I slept in...heh...had once mama of a headache.....
Saw my old buncha youth friends at yishun on Christmas.. But I don't really feel "there" with them anymore. The way they do stuff in general. Ain't my style. Maybe that's the way they were 'taught' by the 'head'. Sad though. When I compare the kids...yes the kids (primary school) from another church I am going to, and them. I see alot more of God in the younger ones. They are way more mature in their ways. Ever seen kids pray till the only sound in the room is prayer so loud it drowns out the music?
If being 'young at heart' helps the older ones to bond closer and serve God better, who am I to judge right?
Another weird thing. I seem to be drifting from God too... I don't have much time to read the bible, praise or even pray much. My mind and life is way to occupied with things that leave me way tired on weekends. Thank God they starting a YA service at the other church that starts at 1930. At least I got more time to rest and stuff.
Oh well...i'll stop my rantings and ravings for now...
Next week, I'll put up my new year resolutions..and hopefully be in a more cheerful mood.
Till then..no matter how much you think you are suffering...I am way worse then you.
Take care.
Posted on 12/26/2004 by <$The One$>
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